An Anthology of Evil Men by Esme Oliver

Author:Esme Oliver
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Riverdale Avenue Books
Published: 2018-09-28T00:00:00+00:00

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Days and then weeks pass. I never hear from Paul. He never does call me back. So I guess this is how it ends with us. I do hear stories about him at work. The Litigation partners are anxiously awaiting his arrival. Even though he is in Rhode Island and had plenty of firms there interested in him, he has nevertheless decided to come here.

And it only gets worse. I learn his is bringing her with him. They are looking for apartments now downtown, and she is looking at some smaller firms in Boston. I doubt she will even work. She’s so dumb. And anyway, he will be making plenty of money.

It’s only a few months now till he arrives with her. I desperately feel like I need a boyfriend before he gets here. I just have to move on and be happy again. I can’t be alone when comes.

So I start to date, and often. I meet a resident neurologist at the hospital, and we start spending a lot of time together as he lives right down the street from me.

But he’s from family money and rich and self-centered, and we start to fight about the way he talks to the nurses when they page him. I can’t stand it. I think about Paul and how he always wanted to protect those who were under him. I could never see him talking to his secretary like this. So I break up with him only to move rapidly to one of my law firm friend’s brother. He’s a meathead and obsessed with tailgating at football games on the weekends, but I sleep with him anyway and drink a lot of beer. I convince myself that I don’t need an intellectual—that it’s more important to be with someone who treats you well. And although he’s pretty stupid, he is really nice to me.

But somehow I always go back to Paul. I compare everyone to Paul and start to wonder if it is even possible for me to ever fall in love again. I wonder if he has changed his mind—if he will come back to me and dump that piece of white trash.

My body and my mind start to break down as I anticipate his arrival. I am losing a lot of weight without even trying, and the associates at the firm are talking about me. One of my friends there tells me that I look too thin, and people are starting to worry about me. I can’t concentrate at work. I think about Paul coming and start to cry. I just know I’m going to get fired. I just wish I could go back to the dungeon at the hospital where no one could see me.

After work, I lie on my hardwood floors and cry and chain smoke cigarettes. I keep waiting for the email or the phone call—for some kind of explanation, but it never arrives. I leaf through the photos of houses we explored and feel sick to my stomach again.

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